bloody bloodbath

today was another stringently eventful day.
alas.
though i woke up early to write my last update,
i soon fell for the calling of sir sandman and took my 40 winks until it was 1330.

yes...
twas an excuse..
but i was not in the mood to face the day...
but through my inbox text messages,
ery from unisel contacted me.
he wanted to borrow my designs for his theater production...
since i have no more use for it,
i complied.
so i had to wait for him until evening to pick it up.
sigh.
have to actually face the world....
huh.

1st agenda.
shower.

2nd
breakfast-hot dog sandwich, nuggets.

3rd
re-edit/repair the dresses.

4th
online.

to make this less sufferable, i rang nabil up yesterday and made plans to go out later.
so. something to look forward to...
yeay

fast forward,
ery didnt reply my msgs and nabil was coming soon (it was already 730)
so fuck off
im going out.

went to sunway pyramid.
was a bit of a bloody mess it was.
parking lot was a gem hard to dig out.
was disillusion for parking space for nearly an hour.
crappy adventure it was.
but was enjoyed through and through for i had been able to hang out again with my old bloke/compadre/amigo nabil.

went lookin fer his tees we were.
for his dinner tmrow.
was lookin for autumn dresses,i meant tees.
thats the theme for his dinner.
that bloke got paired up with a beauty of a sheila, rumitha was er name.

hahaha! my slang is so badly scarred.
LOL
thanks to the influence of foreign movies...
before we head back, nabil wanted to try krispy kreme...
so we went and bought a dozen doughnuts.
OMG
fattening was the taste.
hah
as we head back, we reminisce...
the idea of a movie marathon was beginning to rust.
we had the idea since we first knew each other.
sucks.
so.
since he is soon to fly off.
why not?
i invited him to my house for the movie.
(was looking fer a place to eat anyways)
and we got to sit down and watched eden lake.
was a gruesome movie it was.
(p.s. ery did come to pick up the dresses. when i was about to leave the mall. had to ring up my sis to help to give the dresses)

it has the same effect on me when i watched 28 days later.
a movie about death and no hope.
i love english movies.. they have purity and essence.
not like hollywood.
we just dont really expect what to happen next.
was bloody brilliant.

here's the poster


and here are some of the scenes....






now im afraid to have children of my own...
gulp.

next to brett, she (paige (finn atkins)) was the worst of them lot.
would gladly run her over and reverse (12 times repeatedly) !!

a series of unfortunate disaster leading to my soon to be impeding moody behaviour

after a week of deprived thirst to taste the world outside the window, finally the day of my 2nd date, my 2nd outing actually (don't know why it seems i only go 1 outing per week and it all falls on Thursdays.... IRONIC) arrived..

to my bleak expectations, i woke up at 9 ( after much twist and turning the night before due the the exuberant amount of influx in the term of new ideas...)though happy with the thought of finally managed to imagined what the queen might look like i slept for a maximum of 3 hours! (fuck)

yes.
due to my childish nature, i woke up early.
excited. though initially sleepy, to be reminded of the outing,
im up up and away!! (from the bed)

with the regular activities in mind,

(zerronemo's holiday schedule= wake up, shower, clean clothes, dry em, sweep floors, wash dishes, cook breakfast/lunch [which usually consists of home made quater-pounder burger] eat while watching tv, go upstairs and do research/online/game [currently rune factory 2/final fantasy 8] until my eyes go red)





i didnt do any except shower, online for awhile and wash dishes (only because my big brother was in a bad mood [sheesh])

fave artist of the moment,



aghast! to my horror, my favorite piece of shorts was missing!
fuck
the outfit that has been pre-planned to wear today was disrupted
gone were the 'the look' i was going for that day.

panic.
what to wear!
in frantic, unloaded all feasable looking tee... ( all that i find cute)

rage.
i kicked and screamed while still looking for my shorts (my brother was out)
it was not in the washing machine,
not in my mum's room
not in my brothers' room
not even in my sister's!
(could my little brother brought it with him to college? i wonder....)

confused.
i looked up down high and low.
still it couldnt be found..
i even looked outside! (which seems petty at the moment)

11am.
text message received

h="bru bgn! kne tolong mama hantar barang jap. lps ni trus siap!"

z="u dah blk gtau! tgu u siap i blh siap 3 kali!"

h="ooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

z="btulla!"


to my dismay.

12am
text message received

h="bru blk! nak siap!"

replied,

z="................(didnt reply'


fuck.
havent found anything...

option 2.
shirt!
i have many cute shirts!
why didnt i thought of it sooner??
(maybe because the look i had in mind today was easy breezy covergirl...[WTF?LMAO])

shirt 1*= nooo!!
shirt 2*= maybe...
shirt 3*= omg why did i bought this in the first place???
shirt 4*= if im going into blue collar hell...
shirt 5*= hippy me...
shirt 6*= is this mine?
shirt 7*= i give up

(f.y.i, with every pair of shirt i changed from skinny jeans, to straight cut, to black shorts and finally earth brown shorts... not tiring at all)

with the computer blaring my current favorite songs LOUDLY

playlist=(not in order of favorite)

1. doesnt mean anything - alicia keys
2. video phone - beyonce feat lady gaga
3. 3 - britney spears... (ironic. 1,2,3 not only you and me, got 180* and im caught in between! hahahahah)
4. sexy bitch - david guetta feat akon
5. down - jay sean feat lil wayne
6. tik tok- ke$ha
7. bad romance- lady gaga
8. alejandro (dont call my name) - lady gaga
9. filthy pop - lady gaga
10. no way- lady gaga
11. dance int the dark - lady gaga
12. bad romance (music video) - lady gaga
13. this is it - micheal jackson
14. russian roulette - rihanna
15. fight for this love - cheryl cole
16. badboys - alexandra burke feat flo rida
17. nobody in english - wondergirls
18. situation cant go right - lady gaga feat asher roth




i was in disillusionment...

what to wear!!!
in a deranged pursuit,
i was running back and forth still looking for the pants...
i am sweating.

1pm
text message received

h= "bru kuar rumah!"

after much rampage and berserk'n moments,
i have to settle on something...

stupid P.A. navy blue shirt
ugly SEED earth brown short pants
brown crystal bracelet (Carrollite Dolomite Hematite Chalcopyrite)
old P.A sling
black springfield

FUGLY
(dont know why i wear a whole lot of padini today... sigh)

with my cardy and jacket in my sling, i was almost there...

aroma
shit
what to wear today!
list of available fragrance = ch 212, jpg, black xs, hugo, dior homme...

because of my stupidity,
i sprayed dior instead of 212.

fuck summore...

i was a disaster.

1:45 pm

h= "lg 5 minute"

fuck fuck fuck
off to tie my shoes...

after much complications,
im finally out!!!
through a long process of contemplation.
we decided on going to mid valley!

disaster.
no parking...
none in the gardens.
none in megamall.
after much rousing
arguements
deafing

tada!
found a spot!
quite near to the entrance i might add
:)
luck is finally turning

off to the ticket booth!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
WHY THE fuck DOES PEOPLE HAVE NO LIFE TODAY????!
the queue was horrendous!
typical.

a loooooooong agonizing wait pursue...
oh well..
at least i get to bore my mate with the ideas and concept of my designs next sem.
if only thou had ears to pay attention to my verbal abuse... sigh

when it was finally our turn,
two ticket booth was open for service!
yeay!
opting for the less attractive attendant, (thou eyes shall not gag in awe in front of me!)
we bought two tickets for astroboy!!!!
yeay!!!!






watched it on its premier!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.............
eat!
tick was for 3:30
the time now, 3:05

will we be able to eat on time?
will we be able to actually decide on where to eat on time??

due to my shy yet private nature,
food court is a huge no-no. (too many choices!)
mcd was our replenishing spot for the day.
haha

z= "sempat ke makan?"

h= "sempat jerh..."

z= "kalo x dapat tgk preview i blame u"

h= "oooohhhhh!! sempat jerh"

z= "(rolling eyes) yela tuh..."

h= " ha! buat mate buat mate! LOL"

we didnt get to see the preview.....
loads of seats open
hahahah
not many are as enthusiastic to support my childhood hero today it seems..
oh well.
more private moments for me i guess.
LOL
yeay! no crowd!

enjoyed it
had two streak of good movie to watch!
(though for both week the initial agenda was to watch 2012....)
last week was my fav movie ever (for this season only really)

PHOBIA 2


loved loved loved it!!!!
my favorite was IN THE END
because my beloved band of actors from MIDDLEMAN (4BIA)
was back!
yeay to ter aey puak and shin
owh and Banjong Pisanthanakun for directing it.
:)



RECOMENDED!

after the movie,
golly gie!
let go to MPH!
the land of marvel and fantasy...

found THE BOOK
THE BOOK of fashion!
garment construction dan design..
omg omg omg
have to tell mom.

alas.
phone was not functioning....
had to postpone...
sorry new friend... will buy you later...
:'(

through much deliberation, finally bought my research sketch book!
can finally start on my research properly.. (ho ho ho)

next stop.. KAMDAR!
looked at some fabric...
was not awed...
got a few samples...
and finally was on our way back home
(not without ice cream.. hahahah)

before the engine start to rumble, i show h my designs..
hard to explain, but hopefully understood..
^u^

home bound!
if it wasnt because of my stupid look i would have enjoyed the day...
the events pursuit cant be elaborated do to sexual contents that didnt happen...

leaving me very frustrated and annoyed..
no mood.
ate mum's mac and cheese.
went to bed...
woke up accidently at 3:45 am.
wrote this blog update...
goodnight...

dont let your PHOBIA bite.
LOL

Omnem dimittite spem, o vos intrantes

(rodin's masterpiece,The Gates of Hell/La Porte de l'Enfer)

THROUGH ME THE WAY INTO THE SUFFERING CITY,
THROUGH ME THE WAY TO THE ETERNAL PAIN,
THROUGH ME THE WAY THAT RUNS AMONG THE LOST.
JUSTICE URGED ON MY HIGH ARTIFICER;
MY MAKER WAS DIVINE AUTHORITY, THE HIGHEST WISDOM, AND THE PRIMAL LOVE.
BEFORE ME NOTHING BUT ETERNAL THINGS WERE MADE, AND I ENDURE ETERNALLY.
ABANDON EVERY HOPE, WHO ENTER HERE

cool eh?
the inscription above the gates of hell..
dante's inferno, 3rd canto









Hortus deliciarum (Latin for Garden of Delights)

rescue me....

"a far cry it seems of this lonesome man to seek. i have seen the world and i hate it. why must we traverse in this dark entity without the lights of heavens? why do the serene callings of hell make me safe??? what is wrong with this awful place?
death is all around us, to be called upon seems to be a blessing, to be ripped apart thy soul from thy wretched earthly carcass is the virtue to be seek!
to die in pain, rather in vain..
thus pain eludes us from the ecstasy christen by death!
pain as the glory of living, ripped apart thy skin from limb to limb!
gorge out thy eyes to see no evil,
carve out thy mouth and lips to speak no evil,
dig out your ears to hear no evil!
i beseech you.
do unto other what you wish to be done upon you...
may the gates of hell receive thee with guns a blaze!
cleanse my demonic soul with your blood my savior!
free me off this journey wrapped in your thorns!
slit my throat or cut off my tongue...
make me feel pain!
make me suffer!
make me believe in the philosophy enchanted by thy riddles!
answer me this....
why the fuck should you succeed when all else fail?"


laments of my insecurities....

"Insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless (whether in a rational or an irrational manner).
A person who is insecure lacks confidence in their own value and capability, lacks trust in themselves or others, or has fears that a present positive state is temporary and will let them down and cause them loss or distress by "going wrong" in the future.
This is not to be confused with humility, which involves recognising one's failings but still maintaining a healthy dose of self-confidence. Insecurity is not an objective evaluation of one's ability but an emotional interpretation, as two people with the same capabilities may have entirely different levels of insecurity.
Insecurity may cause shyness, paranoia and social withdrawal, or alternatively it may encourage compensatory behaviors such as arrogance, aggression, or bullying, a principle enshrined in the phrase "all bullies are cowards." Many people suffer a period of insecurity during puberty, which gives rise to a lot of the stereotypical behaviors of adolescents."



In Norse mythology, a valkyrie (Old Norse valkyrja "chooser of the slain") is one of a host of female figures who decide who will die in battle. The valkyries bring their chosen to the afterlife hall of the slain, Valhalla, ruled over by the god Odin, where the deceased warriors become einherjar. There, when the einherjar are not preparing for the events of Ragnarök, the valkyries bear them mead. Valkyries also appear as lovers of heroes and other mortals, where they are sometimes described as the daughters of royalty, sometimes accompanied by ravens, and sometimes connected to swans.